Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Does This Ever Happen To You?

So, I was about to send a quick little email to Brandon with an inside joke in it, and I thought, as I always do before sending an email "I'd better make sure I'm sending it to the right person." So I looked at the name, and it was correct, but I was doubtful for a moment. "Wait a minute--is that really my husband's name? Is there really such a person? And even if that person really exists, am I really related to him in the way I think I am?" What if my life turns into an episode of the Twilight Zone and all of a sudden the people who mean most to me become mere acquaintances and are all confused that I'm speaking so familiarly to them?

When I was a kid I used to wonder whether perhaps everyone I had ever met was a robot, or a hologram, and I was just the subject of an experiment to see whether a human raised by robots would grow up normally. Or maybe I was a robot myself, the subject of an experiment to see if a robot raised as a human would be the same as a human. If that were the case, how would I ever find out?

Does anyone else occasionally wonder if perhaps the basic fabric of life is about to be torn apart?

2 comments:

Denguin said...

LOL, Virgie. This exact thing hasn't happened to me, but I did have a different sort of panic playout while emailing once. I was looking at my address book too and I was just suddenly confused by all the letters and characters. It was like I suddenly forgot how to read for 3 minutes or so. It looked all foreign and strange. Then I started thinking without a language which was bizarre. It was just emotions and instinct. I can't believe I forgot all about this experience until I read this blog. Thanks for the memories:P <3

jenzai studio said...

No, this kind of thing never happens to me (she tries to write with a straight face).